WAS IT LOVE?

June 16th 2014, Facebook:-

Vinit Mathur: Hey Priya, hows u? Can we be friends? Please :)

Priya Chaudhari: hii n yeah ... y not ..

This innocent looking conversation never seemed would be the one to turn my life upside down!!

While surfing through the friends list of one of my friend I had come across this gorgeous and beautiful girl. I opened her profile to be welcomed by an ebullient sweet grin on an absolutely innocent face. And with the wavy brown hairs she had instantly made me fall for her. Her 'About Me' said "I'm innocent gal with simple dream... Be greatful, give love laugh alotttttt...."

After being heartbroken for past few months due to my Ex, I was in search of new friends and this pretty girl with her 'innocent' self description and ingenuousness to make mistake and not care about it at all, made me initiate the conversation. After getting a favorable reply, I had decided to be 'just friends' and stick to formal chats and not to push it. But gradually we were becoming more comfortable and eventually exchanged our routine life, our views, our problems and yeah also our cell numbers! The another reason for not crossing friendship was that through our mutual friend I had come to know that this girl was quite friendly but hated flirting (which was my fauté!) and most important- recently she had broken up.

I have this notion of caring for beautiful girls J and Priya wasn't an exception! I was in love with this sweet girl and wanted her to get over her past and start believing in love yet again. I so badly wanted her to stop being gloomy and get what she deserved. I showed my care whenever I could, through our chats, our frequent talks over calls. And soon the frequency of our calls had turned to daily!

After daily chats and long phone calls the bond between us had flourished and unknowingly crossed 'just friends' limits. We talked day in, day out. We used to have absurd talks over call and end up laughing like a freak!! Days were changing for both of us...We both were realizing it was something beyond friendship but I think she feared of defining it... and I knew it was LOVE.

August 6th 2014:-

It was Priya's birthday and I had well planned it to reveal my feelings to her today at the same time taking care it didn't hurt our friendship. We had decided to meet at Starbucks around 4 pm and then hangout for a couple of hours.

At sharp 4pm I had reached the venue, but there was no sign of Priya. It was the first time we were meeting in person and so I had taken enough care to look charming! After 10 long minutes a white Innova pulled in where I was standing and Priya stepped out of it. I was awestruck by her beauty. She was wearing a Pink and white knee length one piece with a black purse hanging through her left shoulder. She was even prettier than I had imagined!!

"I'm extremely sorry", the birthday girl was apologizing for being late!

"It's ok!" was what I could only speak as I was lost in beholding the flawless creation of God in front of me!

We went inside the Starbucks and grabbed a corner seat for two of us. I was in high spirits on meeting Priya and enjoying her birthday bash, but she seemed to be upset with something. I enquired, "What's the matter? You look so upset." I feared that she was not happy with our meeting, but then Priya wasn't the type of girl to go by person's appearance. But my stupid fear was turned to a grave one at her reply.

"My ex is asking me for patch up. He is sorry for his mistakes and says he cares for me a lot! He even called me up at midnight and sang me Happy-Birthday. He is tough to handle sometimes but he loves me so much. He always brought me cute little gifts...."

I was flabbergasted. I had planned to propose her but now it looked like everything was blown up! I knew that her ex tried to contact her and apologize, she chatted with him sometimes but I never thought that she would still have feelings for him or may be that was just a soft corner. I was lost and I guess she noticed that and said, "Hey, are you listening? What are you thinking? I guess I shouldn't have broached up this topic!"

I had to make a decision. It was now or never! I blurted out, "Priya, I love you!"

She wasn't prepared for this and as expected she was surprised, but she stayed quiet because I had stated the obvious! I tried to remain calm and continued further,

"See, you deserve some one better. That guy has troubled you all these months and now even if he says he is changed, he cannot be trusted. You can be happy with me, you know! We are just perfect together. You always wanted someone true. You have ME now!"

"Vinit, I know you are there for me. You are such a wonderful guy. I like talking to you. But I love him still, I guess. I like you. But I need time to think about all this."

A week had passed since I proposed her and she had not answered me yet. But her liking for me was visible through our whole day continuous chats, her possessiveness about me, her impatience when I wouldn't reply quickly, her jealousy when I commented on other girls, etc.

Finally one fine day I asked her about her decision to which she replied, "I don't know Vinit. Can't we be just best friends? I like you a lot. But I love Mihir. And I can't leave him."

That was enough said for me to get devastated. Just like her, I was possessive. I couldn't stand her words, her decision and her whimsical gestures! Sometimes she was so caring and loving and sometimes she treated me just like another-guy-met-on-fb! I wanted her complete attention and I wanted her to be just mine...

Mihir was a Priya's ex and by his appearance and attitude showed ruggedness, filthy words dripping out from every single word. My gut feeling told me that this guy was playing with innocent Priya and she needed to know the truth.

Today, 28th October 2014:-

After the sad episode of Priya's 'just friends' decision I had resumed to short chat with her. It killed me each day to not act inherently with her. She asked me about my such behavior in the beginning but later even she was ok about it, I guess things between Mihir and her were sorted out.

All this time, around 2 months, I was busy gathering information about Mihir. I had come to known about his defiled character and his notorious image in his college and locality. I am glad on one side that I have finally found out his true nature and now Priya can know about it... but on other side I am feeling sorry for Priya, for her wrong decisions, for her blind faith.

I know she would get over him soon because I will help her get thorough like I had done few months ago and then we can be together... FOREVER!!

EPILOGUE-

But this isn't a story with a happy ending; it's a true life incident of my friend, Vinit.

Priya never came to know the truth..... because the very next day, 29th October 2014, Vinit met an accident while returning from college. He died with Priya's thoughts, desperate and true love for her. He died with a yearning for TRUE love from her. He always wanted a girl who would love him back as much as he loved her. Priya knew what he wanted, but never responded in the same manner. She knew she loved Vinit more than Mihir but she didn't want to hurt her Mihir just because she thought he TRULY loved her! Priya had lost her friend, her true love for a fake one! She didn't dare to step ahead and take the right decision because she feared that would malign her image! She loved Vinit but now it is of no use. He is gone... empty handed and empty hearted!

Was it love when she couldn't fight herself to make Vinit happy? Was it love when she couldn't give Vinit what he demanded even once?? Was it love when she couldn't see what is right and what is fake???